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| JACOB BLACK IS LOVE:)i would be hypocrite if I will not admit that i'd been inlove with Edward's charcacter. I mean who wouldn't, right? he's the perfect guy. He has all the characteristics that a woman looks for. He's kind, caring, sweet and willing to give his life for you, he's the PERFECT catch. Bella is so lucky because she has edward who loves her to death. But my perception of edward's character changed after reading all the books, he's the PERFECT GUY alright, but he is too Perfect that it seems so UNREALISTIC, i know that it is supposed to be a unrealistic one because it is a FICTION, but c'mon who wouldn't dream to have Edward in her life? who wouldn't look for her own edward and would wish every night that edward would come to her room and sing her a lullaby? because of his character, women seeks for their own edward that some didn't realize that too much PERFECT is not HEALTHY.. no one is PERFECT. There are no GUYS( no offense for the boys, but it is a fact) who would be just like edward cause they are human, who makes mistakes too.
so what's the point of this blog? well, i wanted to say that I'm over Edward's character and I'm starting to fall with Jacob's personality. For me, he's the RIGHT one to fell in love with because he is not PERFECT, he has FLAWS and that's what made me fall in love with his character. He's not too sweet, not too caring (in a good way, of course!) not too PROTECTIVE (unlike edward-heehee:]) and over-all he's REAL. What i mean by real? real in a way, that there could be Jacob in real life, that there may be guys that instills Jacob's happy disposition. He may not have the qualities that Edward posses but at least his character is for real:)
*Im not saying this to influence others to forget edward or to argue to those women who likes him, I only wrote what i felt about the characters. This is my opinion. Again, i too had fallen in love with edward's character and i don't deny it:) so please, don't quarrel with me, if you find it offensive. thank you:)
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| FIRST DAY.:|>:|I just got home from school, it was our first day of the second semester and surprisingly my first day didn't go well. My first day SUCKS! some of our professors were treating as like High school students even if we are not. HELLO?? we are already in our SECOND YEAR of COLLEGE, so that already counts that we are now an adult too, So why treat us as if we are still kids?. One more thing, I hate this one professor, why do i hate her?? simply because she gave us HOMEWORK, excuse me, it's the first day of classes(what the hell:|) i know that professors has the every right to do what she/he likes to ask from his/her students, but her HOMEWORK is very unreasonable, its not even related to the subject itself or maybe it is, but still its not that closely related. Guess what kind of homework she asked us to do, she wants us to answer those stupid question, questions that are very slumbook-ish. GRR.
one more thing that makes my FIRST DAY really bad is this "singaw", i don't know the English term but it is the thing you get when you have braces, the thing that it is swollen and when it is touched by your tongue would hurt you. I have that now, and it is irritating me because i can't eat and speak well. Worst i can't even yawn. SHEESH! oh by the way, i don't have braces.
this is a really really BAD DAY for me.:|
* oh, i would like to apologize for such bad words and for that professor, I am just not really in the mood. :|
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| forgive.forget.farewellOkay, this is kinda weird because i don't actually write how i feel. I'm used to talking with my friends or with my mom if there is something bothering me, but now i feel like writing it. I' don't know what push me to make a blog, maybe i just feel like making one. So anyway, the reason why I'm here, typing and thinking of words to say is because of the thoughts that has been bugging me last night. I'm not SAD I'm actually HAPPY . I'm happy because finally he realized his mistakes through KARMA. yeah, you got that right! KARMA. well I'm not making myself clear, am i?? so let me tell you a story, well my story last summer.
last October 2007, i met a guy whose name is starting with an L( i won't put his name here, okay?sorry) I met him through my brother. I won't say that it was a love-at-first sight for me, but the moment I met him, i can't stop thinking of him, I guess i was captivated by his looks and everything. He is the perfect one for me, he doesn't smoke, drink and go partying(I'm a conservative girl  .) He is different from the guys I met. Anyway, L and I became friends, exchanged text messages and would sometimes hang out, from there I started to fall in love with him and hope that He would love me back too.
Last summer, was everything for me because it was the season where he asked me if he could court me. At first i was all "OMG is this really happening?? wake me up guys!finally". I really don't know how to express my feelings that time, i felt a mixture of happiness, nervousness and excitement. Before I said yes, I asked my mom first, if she would allow me to accept him as my suitor(i ask first for my MOM's approval before i say Yes to my suitors, weird right??) and fortunately she said YES. So there the courtship had finally started, like I said I'm the conservative type and its part of our culture that Guys should court girls(I'm a PROUD FILIPINA). So anyway, L would go to our place and would visit, we would sometimes talk(SOMETIMES--because i find it awkward to talk to him) honestly the only thing we would do if he's in our house is that we would look at each other's eyes and smile. But the special moments I'd spent with him, did not last long, He stopped because he thinks that it was not the right time for us, but he promised me that he's willing to wait. I respected and accepted his decision. and I was great for that because after 3 days of his courtship i found out at that he already have another girl. I admit that I was HURT, really HURT. I was even HURT when he texted me, about his new girl(damn HIM!). Apparently, their relationship didn't last because the girl is a lesbian(so much for that). L came back to me apologizing and explaining, he even told me that he loves me and that he really cares for me, but I did not listen, I wanted to but half of me is telling me that I don't deserve him that I would be Hurt again.
I wouldn't tell you all the details cause it's too long for me to write here. Going back to the first part of my blog, i am HAPPY because finally he realized all his mistakes through KARMA. He told me that he got KARMA after courting me. No one believes him when he asked other girls out, his life was a messed after that incident. He started going out with friends and drink, he failed his subjects in school. He was really a MESS. He regret of what he did in the past and rest assured that it won't happened again. I told him to be just happy and live his life to the fullest, we are still young there are a lot of things that may come along in our life and the only thing we could do is to learn from our experiences. I told him that what is in the Past is done, that everything in the past should be forgotten, we were both have our mistakes and that was it. PERIOD. we could no longer go back to the way it was, the only solution we could do is to be HAPPY and be CONTENTED. After talking to him last night, i kind of feel relieved, I feel complete again. From that talked I FORGIVE him, without even telling him and I'm sure that he too feels that he was FORGIVEN. In my heart I bid goodbye to our almost love relationship. well, hey! that's not the end for ME and HIM, that's only the beginning for a GOOD and FRIENDLY relationship.
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